These day's I occasionally find myself apologizing to friends because I can't do everything like before and i find that a hand full cannot relate or understand.
I will admit I am young so have only just crossed the going out, going clubbing getting drunk stage and believe me when i say i was the alcoholic life of the party. So now I go out if i can and rarely drink. I sit and make chit chat and enjoy my short lived freedom.
Lately I have been noticing that because i am not as inclined to get blind drunk I am being judged and it is the most peculiar thing... As a result of my new found maturity and responsibility I can finally open my eyes to the people around me and really take note of who deserves my company as well as changing myself, life in itself is changing and it is SCARY! Unfortunately the truth is i might have to choose the company i surround myself with and this is scary because the reality of high school being well and truly over has suddenly dawned on me. We are growing up and growing out.
I think it is so important to embrace every moment and enjoy your life. Therefor i wont ever apologize here on for not being somewhere because that would mean saying sorry for being a mummy.